I am Happy- a confession

I don't really know what I'm about to write about, but I haven't written about anything in a while, so I'll write about that- about nothing maybe (how is that for the {over}use of about).
I was reading your blogs and I began to feel sad in a way- well helpless is more like it. You guys are GREAT friends. I know this time is hard for you, and there is nothing much I can do. But know I pray for you.
(I almost stopped there. Something about "misery loves company" is true. I didn't want to post because I felt kinda of guilty for not being miserable)
But you know what. I am not going to be miserable. Lord knows I have been miserable before (Dan, I'm pretty sure nobody has ever seen me cry [cry might be somewhat of an understatement] like you have), but now is not my time. I'm sorry. I can try if you want to, but it's not where I am right now. Life has seasons. I am in one, and so are you. You KNOW this. It is in your core. When you start your stream of consciousness it always comes out. After you have laid your guts out on the table of frustration, you always come back to some sort of "God is good". And I LOVE that. That is what David did. He threw it out there and said "God this F'n sucks" (pardon my Hebrew), but when he was done, as hard as it might have been, God was still God.
So I am happy. Life is freaking good. Granted, I sit in front of a small computer screen all day long, and by the time my wife gets home it is dark- but really every second of my day is awesome. There are no great moments. There is nothing I can tell you that made me feel this way. It just is. I just am- happy.
Utah is amazing. I really love the whole adventure and feel of it all. There is still a ton unknown, but I really have nothing to complain about ( I could try, but it would be futile).
An FCA speaker (in the new Densch) said something about how when you are up, prepare, because there is NO DOUBT that you will be going down soon, but if you are down, just hold on, because you won't be there long- I promise.
So I will prepare. You hold on. We'll do this life thing together. And when I am down, maybe you will know a better way to bring me up to join you.