"things are changing though..."

I agree with Dan. I've definitely been down and dark more recently than I have most of my life. That translates into the way I do relationships, the way I approach relationships, the way I write. Friday night I got to attend a Student Venture high school conference meeting. There was nothing entirely spectacular about the meeting itself, but while I was there, talking with the people I'd be working with, watching the students I'll be ministering to, thinking about the last year and how I've felt as though I've been following, being obedient, but not entirely sure why, just moving as best as I can in a direction that I might should move in. Friday night, I, for the first time in a couple years, got that feeling in the pit of my stomach that said, "you were made for this." I felt as though the last year hasn't been in vain. That God is moving me somewhere. That He's got a reason for me being here. I can't say that it's been easy to trust that that past year, but I tried to believe it was true. It was really nice to get a small, fleeting glimpse that God is still working and has something yet for me. I'm almost sure it won't ever get easy, and I'm not exactly sure I want it to. It's been a rough season. Things are changing though.