Saturday, December 22, 2007

where is that boat going???

so im sitting here in my coffee shop working on saturday at the lofts, which basically means that over the course of my 7.5 hour shift, i will probably have somewhere between 15-20 customers. this of course is great for blogging, not so great for the shop though.

i got back from atlanta wednesday afternoon and immediately started doing a bunch of just stuff. i have a pretty large life decision that needs to be made by jan 1, and im totally avoiding making it or even really thinking about it. i guess i kinda dont know what to do, or how to decide, but i have come to this conclusion, if i wanna do youth ministry then im gonna move to atlanta, and if i dont wanna do youth ministry, then im gonna stay in ft lauderdale and try and go to EMT and firefighting school, all the while mastering the fine art of being a barista...

i kinda feel like whichever one i choose i will wonder about the other one, i want to be confident, i remember that i used to be confident, i dont know what happened. well maybe i know what happened, but i dont know how to undo what has been done to my confidence. im pretty terrified to move to atlanta, i dont know if i can really hack it as a youth pastor, but at the same time im kinda afraid to stay here bc i dont know what the future holds. i dont wanna just sit, im so sick of just sitting and waiting, and all that nonsense, now is a time for action. i just dont know what action...

2 comments:

J.Taylor said...

Dan,
I almost feel that, in lieu of this post, I could tell you what to do. Fear not amigo. Jan 1 is near. That is scary, but it could mean the end of this phase in life... maybe.

dan [tc] said...

so what do i do?